Time away
For the first few months of this journey, I was on task for every aspect of this course. Then life started to get in the way. I took on some extra responsibilities with work and at home and I used my free time doing other things. Excuses, all. And now I am behind by fully two months. I have two years to finish this program, though I suppose I could always start over because the important part is the learning, not so much the certification. As I have fallen further and further behind, I have felt more and more guilt about being behind and less and less confident about what I have already learned and my ability to continue to learn. Vicious cycle. I have a lot of projects that don't get finished. It is not uncommon for me to get 90% complete and then walk away. I take on new stuff all of the time and then fall off of the passion when it gets to be too much. Perfectionism, insecurity, something I don't know yet, all could be reasons. It is frustrating, that much I kno